The one thing I really miss since my mastectomy is going braless.
I’ll go out without make-up. I’ll wear dirty gardening clothes when I walk my dog. I am not vain. But, walking around with one boob just looks weird, even to me.
So, before I go out in public, I stuff a prosthetic into a mastectomy bra and put the thing on. Even when the weather is hot. Even when I won’t be seeing anybody I know. Everybody I know is aware I’ve had one boob chopped off. But they’re still used to seeing me with two.
Recently I read about stick-on boobs. No glue – something in the texture of the prosthetic is supposed to make it stick to the skin without feeling icky or irritating.
I read reviews. Several models got positive reviews, but very few details.
I wrote some stores that carry them – do you have a model that stays on when swimming vigorously?
One store wrote back that they have one model that will do the job. I ordered it.
Then I thought – I forgot to ask how the sizing runs in that model.
I wrote the store. The consultant wrote back that the model I had ordered runs small.
Yay! It was my smaller breast that got cancer. I think it looks odd to have even looking breasts. I never had them before, so why now, when the replacement is fake? But all the consultants I talked to previously, suggested I buy the size that fits the bra – no one had mentioned the possibility that I might want something different. And I didn’t think about it.
I’m looking forward to looking more like me again – with uneven breasts. And now that I’ve thought about it, I’ll just order a size smaller in the future.
If I have to buy a boob, it may as well fit my self-image, rather than my bra.